Stares at mirror

So today Killian played without me there supervising (at Ms. Rita's house next door) while Bryan and I went to try to pick up his birthday presents . . . OMG!  Im not ready for this!  I was ready to have a panic attack the entire time we were gone.  That was the first time he played at another kids house . . . omg.  I feel like he is growing way way too fast for me. *cries*

On another sad and depressing note, on my weigh in today I have gained 21 pounds since Feb.  How the hell did that happen?  I was thinking it might be because its *that* time of the month.  I am going to reweigh after its gone so that I will have a better perspective of if its water weight or if I really have gotten that out of control with what I have been eating. *cries*

Today was a good day overall.  Worked out in the back yard for a bit cleaning up and watering.  Then went to the store (see first para) and then came home, made a wonderful dinner and am now sitting down watching Avatar with Bryan, Killian, Jake (the dog) and Butters (the cat).  How we all wound up in the same small vicinity at the same exact time I have no clue.  Its rather rare but its nice.  I feel completely at home and comfortable. :o)  Surrounded by those I love, those who love me and watching a movie with a sexy blue guy. How much better can it get?

:o)

Talk more later
Katie