Days 6 and 7 I think . . .

4/29/2011 Hectic hectic day . . . *sigh*

4/30/2011
Growl . . . So today has been an absolute roller coaster.  I had to take Killian to the ER before three o clock this morning.  We got home around 8.  I went back to sleep.  I haven't eaten much and I am exhausted.  I want to say I am exhausted because of being at ER but I wonder if its also because of stress and maybe an incomplete diet?  Not sure.  I am trying to make sure that my meals are squared out but I think I might be missing something somehow.

*sigh*  I did however manage to complete my food diary.

GOOD NIGHT NEW YORK!!!

Katie

Yesterday and Today (days 4 and 5 I think . . .)

<this was written 4/28/2011>

So I forgot to post yesterday.  It was a "Wacky Wednesday" as Dr. Suess would say :) .  I felt a little down yesterday but overall good.  I also forgot to do my daily food log.  However, I held firm and ate no meat :)  no processed foods :) no fried foods :)

I think I'm doing better.  Its just going to take soem time to adjust to a new way of eating and living, but I can do it :)

As for today, things are going fairly well.  I'm trying to get Killian to go down for a nap ATM . . . not happening very quickly but I think hes wearing down.  lol.  Today I am feeling a lot better, and much more dedicated to my resolve of getting healthy.  I know that the first 21 days are the hardest.  As someone once said, 'It takes 21 days to make the habit, 21 days to break the habit and a crap load of personal dedication to stick to it'.  Last time I have up on like day six or seven.  I don't plan to give up this time.  I have to make it happen :)

I am however feeling constantly hungry.   I think its because I'm not taking in as much heavy protein as I was before.  That and I am eating less <amazingly>; so here is a challenge, can anyone give me some food ideas for energy that fit within my guidelines?

Let me know!!!!

Katie

Day 3 of restart . . .

It turned out to be a pasta day.  lol.  I made Pasta Primavera this morning and that is what me and the kiddo have been eating all day.  The roommate had it for dinner as well.  AWESOMENESS!  :)  Feel better about my resolution today then i did yesterday, however I feel much more tired today.  I feel like almost second quessing myself.  Feel a little sad, a little depressed but overall just kinda blah.  I think I should be over it soon.  lol.  Im just trying to get into a new rhythm and its taking some time . . . .

Go for weightloss!!!

Katie

day 2-restat . . . im kinda feelin it . . .

So right now (1142)  im feeling pretty good about my decisions but I'm wondering how I am going to be able to stick to it.  lol.  I feel a little sad, kind of uncertain but overall determined to make sure that I make a difference in my life and weight so that I can go out with my son and do things.  I want him to be happy to have me as his mother, not embarrased.  I want to be able to run an 8 minute mile again, wear a size 10 at most and be able to feel healthy.  I am tired of feeling fat, sick and depressed.  There is no better time than now to make a difference for me and my son.  What I do will affect him.  What I do affects me.  I want to ber out with my son running around, playing soccer, baseball, football and not be gasping for breath because of my weight.  Its time to make a difference.  <tries to blink back tears and fails>


So as of now I realize I have almost overshot my calories for the day.  I think dinner tonight is going to be a very simple salad.  Easy on the dressing and with some good hearty vegetables to give me some added energy :)  I'm going to be signing off for the moment *giggle*

Katie

Could be going better . . . day 1 restart

So I could have made some better decisions today, but overall did well.  I did break the no meat rule, but its Easter and we went to a BBQ so I can't really hold that against myself.  Overall while we were there I had about 4 oz of ham, 1 serving of tri-tip, 1 serving of Italian pasta salad, half a serving of potato salad, 1 baked potato, 2 croissants, 1 serving green bean casserole and a couple sips of the kiddos Pepsi as well as a few crackers and a handful of chips.  I also ended up drinking a liter of Diet Dr. Pepper.  *blushes*  I think that today wasn't a bad day but I do think I could have made some better decisions.  I didn't eat breakfast, nor did I take my vitamines this morning. 

Today has been a pretty good day to be honest.  Woke up feeling refreshed.   The kiddo was in a good mood when he woke up.  Bryan was in a good mood and the dog wasn't too much of a pain.  <laughs> 

Updates

So I think it might be necessary to go ahead and post some updates.  I am, as of 15 APR 11, divorced, I have full and sole custody of my kiddo and I am unemployed.  I am stoked about the first to and trying to change the third.  Still going to court over Franks violating the retraining order; we should go to trial the last week of May.  Hopefully it happens :)  Other than that most stuff is still the same.  We have a dog now, his name is Jake, hes a black lap and awesome.  Today was our Easter (yes its a day early).  Killian got an awesome easter basket, hunted eggs, played with a sprinkle and some water guns :)  Dinner ended up being pizza, toasted sandwiches and lots of laughs. 

Katie

GROWL-LEAP!

Okay,  I started trying to make this work almost a year ago without the ability to follow through with it.  This is going to be starting off simple.  No really hard ideas.  For the next six months no meat, no fast food and no fried food.  I will be updating my intakes at myfitnesspal.com and publishing them to facebook (Katie Kuykendall Hernandez).  There is no better time than now to make a difference in my own life; so here goes!

Katie