Rawr *cough cough*

So, I apparently haven't written in a few days . . . growl.  Lol.  not much to catch up on to be honest.  Working on getting back on the band wagon with the diet and on exercising daily.  Oh and finding a job.  lol.  Today was one of those days that I had high hopes that were a little bashed but its ok. :)  I had a job interview that I drove over an hour tog et to that apparently they didn't want to give me a second interview for *sigh*.  Thats okay though.  I have another interview on Thursday for a receptionist position.  :)  I think I would like that one better anyways.  its only fifteen minutes away, paid bridge toll, 3 days on 4 days off and starting at $10.50 an hour.  I call that a nice job. :)  now I just to make sure I land it.  woot wootie woot :o)

Katie

Oh crap

Okay so apparently I haven't written an entry in a few days. . . even though i always have a tab up for it *sigh*.  Yesterday was one of those days where i just said screw it and decided that I would go ahead and splurge a little.  Today is going to be much more on course :o).  I did have a little treat when I went to order Killians birthday cake but it was only a taste of the buttercream filling. :o)  It was really good though!  lol.

Other than that i have taken the past couple of days off from walking my 2 miles.  The shoes I have make it harder than it needs to be so until I can get a nice pair of cross trainers I am going to alternate walking with an at home workout.  Today I did the Golds Gym Door Gym work out.  It burned almost 300 calories and was absolutely awesome!  Even if I am not burning a ton of calories with it, its helping me to build lean muscle.  Lean muscle will help me to burn more calories.  Woot woot woot! :)

I should be able to write another entry in a bit.  For now I am off to have fun with a nap. :)

*Italian Fist*

I shake my fist at Calories and tell them to be damned!  I am going to lose this weight!  I will fight tooth, nail, foot, hand, club and anythign else I can find in order to combat my body and whip it into shape.  there is no turning around and going back.  There is no 'its to hard this time' damn it.  I am tired of looking this way and feeling this way and I am going to make my own difference!

There is no time like the present to make a wonderful change in your life.  And that is just what I am doing.  Growl!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Katie

Exercise Results:

Jogged 5 min
Walked at a 5mph pace for 20 min

Oh yea!

Okay so five days steady I have logged into MFP and kicked butt.  Oh yea!  Today has been a kind of inbetween day, but overall nice.  I have been talking with Pedro back and forth a little bit.  I got in some good exercise.  And I have a JOB INTERVIEW TOMORROW!  Oh yea!  Did anyone see that coming?  Im excited!!!!  WOOT WOOT WOOT!

Hopefully it will go well. :)

Katie

*evil laughter*

*stretches*  Okay peeps!  So this is how my day has gone so far.  It has been rather relaxing and really efficient.  I have almost all of the backed up laundry done, I did some dishes, cooked dinner, picked up Killians room, picked up the livingroom, cleaned a bit in the laundry room, folded laundry (put most of it away), hung out in the back yard and did some work out there plus got a quaint little walk in at Safeway when I went to pick up more laundry detergent and dish soap. :)

On another note I had my heart ripped out a bit by Jack.  But its okay because I am a tough one and I realize that life will work out as it is intended to.  I just need to play my part, be patient and keep heading in the direction of forward and upward. :o)  And as soon as the child is asleep I am going to get shitfaced again.  It helps to numb the emotional issues (and dont' assume I am an alcoholic or a bad influence on my son because I drink after he goes to sleep with my roommate in order to wake up the next day feeling refreshed and happy about life).

Katie

Stares at mirror

So today Killian played without me there supervising (at Ms. Rita's house next door) while Bryan and I went to try to pick up his birthday presents . . . OMG!  Im not ready for this!  I was ready to have a panic attack the entire time we were gone.  That was the first time he played at another kids house . . . omg.  I feel like he is growing way way too fast for me. *cries*

On another sad and depressing note, on my weigh in today I have gained 21 pounds since Feb.  How the hell did that happen?  I was thinking it might be because its *that* time of the month.  I am going to reweigh after its gone so that I will have a better perspective of if its water weight or if I really have gotten that out of control with what I have been eating. *cries*

Today was a good day overall.  Worked out in the back yard for a bit cleaning up and watering.  Then went to the store (see first para) and then came home, made a wonderful dinner and am now sitting down watching Avatar with Bryan, Killian, Jake (the dog) and Butters (the cat).  How we all wound up in the same small vicinity at the same exact time I have no clue.  Its rather rare but its nice.  I feel completely at home and comfortable. :o)  Surrounded by those I love, those who love me and watching a movie with a sexy blue guy. How much better can it get?

:o)

Talk more later
Katie

Muah hahaha!

So!  Today has been extremely interesting, as was last night.  I started talking to an awesome guy named Pedro :)  Hes a sweetheart.  Born in TJ, lived a lot of his life in Cali and is in the Army now getting discharged soon.  Were just friends right now but I would like to see where things go :)

As for the weight loss i think bryan and I are on a pretty good roll to be honest.  We fudged on a few things over the weekend but were still well on track with a paleo based diet :)  I'm feeling stoked!  lol.  And I don't feel depressed about the diet or anything.  I actually feel good and confident which is strange for me to be honest.  I honestly think that what we are donig now is going to make a good difference for the rest of our lives.  A good base of healthy living with great benefits.  I think it will be interesting to see where we are in a few months :)  I think we will both be a lot more fit to be honest. 

Now we still have to work on getting more exercise in but I think we can make it happen.  I realy do.  We just have to find a median on what to do :)  we'll figure it out soon and get rolling on it heheheh :D

Katie

A day off

Post for 7/8/2011

Okay so yesterday equated out to being a day off.  Its the time of the month for being dragon lady and I just wasn't feeling it at that point to be dead honest.  I don't feel bad about taking a day off though.  I feel like it might be something I have to do in order to keep on track.  Just have a day like once every so often, pre-planned of course, that I can eat processed foods.  I'm not talking go out to eat, just eat a couple pieces of gluten free bread or a tamale or empanada or concha.  No overly major changes that would permanently put me off track; just some good old home made food that will hit the spot for naughtiness.  lol

Bryan and I had a really good conversation as to what we can allow in, of course with strict moderation, and what we can do exercise wise together.  He wants to replace running with something and we can't walk or jog because of Killian.  So we are considering doing tae bo, I don't think Bryans too big on the idea, we have tried p90 x and seem to have an issue keeping it going, other than that the only other options seem to be belly dancing or pilates/yoga.  I honestly can't see Bryan doing any of those.  Then again he might be amazing at them. ah hahahaha!  lol.

Oh and I go into the dr (as soon as I schedule) for a palpation and break up of the calcifications to see what is left inside them.  I have my fingers crossed that its just the mushy material that the dr was talking about.  In any case I don't care what it is as long as it benign and not a tumor or cancer anymore.  I have my fingers crossed and am hoping/believing beyond hope. :)  Chin up!

Will write more later :)
Katie

*stares at muscles*

Today. . . well today was definitely a good day. :)  I came in way under my calorie goal, got some good healthy exercise and Killian wasn't as bad of a bug as he could have been.  We went to the beach and harrassed a lot of crabs.  Bryan picked a few up and almost got munched by one :)  Killian had a blast helping us tip rocks to look for them and running away from them.  All I could do was laugh!

At the same time I am having a bit of a low poitn because I feel like I am useless since I don't have a job.  But chin up!  I tell it to everyone else I will be damned if I don't follow my own advice!  *waves finger in air dramatically*

Well I think that is about it for the day :)  Eventually I will figure out how to include a copy of my food for the day so y'all can have a look see :)

Katie

*muscle flex!*

:)  So today is a good day!  I was under my calorie goals, under my fat and carb goals as well so I am feeling completely stoked!

We started on the Paleo diet, which basically combines everything I was trying to do into one convenient source.  We have been sucessful too.  We went out on Saturday, Sunday and Today and we bought  no fastfood at all!  We did drink some soda but its ok.  Slip ups are allowed and its not like it was a huge slip up.  We had hours of waiting to do.

So four days of success on the diet so far.  I'm not having hunger pains, cravings (for anything at all) or feelings of 'starvation'.  It feels a little weird but at the same time it feels good.  Like I know that we are getting somewhere already. :)  And I have more energy!  I'm loving it! hehehe

Well thats all for tonight really.  I will post more soon. :)

Katie

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Argh

So today I was excited because I thought I was finally going to get my teeth taken care of and be a lot more comfortable and in less pain.  Well that didn't happen.  Apparently even if half of a tooth is missing its still "alive and savable".  WTH?!!?! Are you kidding me?  Im in pretty bad pain and your going to tell me that you can save my tooth . . . and five others . . . for 700 dollars that I don't have.  Growl.

Other than that today has been another almost disappointing day.  lol.  But I will survive.  I am adapting and becoming more at peace with what I am trying to do in my life and how I am going to get there.

Food wasn't really much to talk about.  No breakfast.  Lunch was cheddarwurst, peas n carrots and mashed potatoes.  No dinner. *sigh*

Off to the land of disciplining the child.  

Katie

Memorial Day . . .

So today was Memorial Day.  I took a moment of silence to remember the poor souls that have given their lives for our freedom, those who currently serve and those who will lay down their lives in service.  Its very humbling to know how many people are dedicated to our country and willing to lay down their lives so that we may continue with ours.

We had a bbq (didn't go so well for Bryan).  We made cheddarwurst, pork sirloin steaks and homemade hamburgers.  Also there were some chips and dip (for Bryan super hot salsa) and we had a blast out in the back yard :)  Overall it was a very good day.  I think I will end it by saying a good toast to our men and women in uniform and taking a few shots for them. 

May we all find our peace and never forget those who allowed us to.

Katie

Oh Baby!! (Recipe)

Okay so dinner was freaking awesome!!!! I made turkey burgers.  I think I have finally found teh best way to make them absolutely delicious and equal to their red meat counter parts :)  Takine 1.25 lbs of turkey and season with minced garlic, sauteed onions, fresh ground salt, fresh ground pepper, italian seasoning, cumin, red chili powder and italian style bread crumbs.  Mix all of this together then add one egg, two handfuls of shredded cheese (I chose mild cheddar) and a liberal amount of parmesan.  This should make five good sized patties.  Heat your skillet on medium high and wait to put your first patty in until water dances on the skillet.  Then well brown the patties on the first side before turning them over.  Try to turn them over only twice.  Then serve them up on a Kaiser Roll (sliced down the middle with some shredded cheese on the bottom part).  You can put either bbq sauce or ranch on the top of the roll and it tastes delicious!!!!!  Just had to blog about it real quick.  lol.  I know, I'm a dork : P

Katie

Snuffulufagus?

Im in a funny mood today to be honest.  lol.  I just feel happy. :)  and a little giddy at some moments.  lol.  So far today breakfast was scrambled eggs with cheese and toast.  And of course I couldn't help myself so we had soda with breakfast.  lol.  I know I am a terrible person!  :D  but thats ok today.  I don't mind. 

Not sure what is going to encompass the rest of the day but if anything good happens I will do another post :)

Katie

Smiles?

Alrighty people!  Just kidding :)  So today was interesting.   The week hasn't exactly progressed as I had hoped it would but that is neither here nor there.  Sometimes thats just life it seems.  Today we did some gardening, mowed the lawn and went grocery shopping.  oh joy!  I totally made some delicious turkey burgers for a late lunch and we had a sort of fruit salad for dinner as none of us were extremely hungry.  Breakfast was dry cereal.  Oh yea.  :)

Didn't get to do p90x today, or the past few days, because we are restating on Monday when Bryan should be back to par after his truck accident.  The gardening and mowing however, caused me to put out enough exertion that I totally was ready to collapse once we got inside.  Oh yea.  It kicked my butt like I was a little school girl.  :)  but thats okay because that just shows I have room to improve.

Also made a new friend today which helps to make the day a success.  I normally don't make friends out of the blue.  they become friends over time, but hes a cutie and seems pretty awesome.  :)  Religion and past relationships seemed to be most of what we covered tonight but it was definitely a really good conversation, worth resuming tomorrow (if he gets on FB)  or whenever we talk again.  On other notes Bryan has taken to reading my blogs over my shoulder so I shall sign off for now :)

Arrivederci!
Katie

Worn down

I don't even know what day I am on.  As sad as that might sound.  Today bryan and I did P90X.  Totally not for the weak of heart. . . . at all.  him and I both feel like were ready to collapse.  Im taking a bath and I wouldn't be surprised if he chose to take a nap.  lol.  Diet has been going fairly well to be honest i have cheated a bit though.  Im not as tough as I thought I was.  I can't cut out ALL of my meat; I just don't have the heart to.  But I have been doing well with making healthy choices in the meat I do eat :)  Chicken and Turkey are good for everyone!  lol.  I have  even tried some tofurky dogs (which I won't ever eat again, but at least I was willing to try them).  I think that I am also going to add Zumba and belly dancing to my workouts on the days that we don't do the ab ripper with the p90x.  Things really are looking up, besides being really tired right now.  lol.  Soon I will have a bathroom scale and then I can make weekly weigh ins and see how I am doign from a numbers point of view as well as visually.  Pictures soon hopefully.  :)

Off to finish my bath!
Katie

Days 6 and 7 I think . . .

4/29/2011 Hectic hectic day . . . *sigh*

4/30/2011
Growl . . . So today has been an absolute roller coaster.  I had to take Killian to the ER before three o clock this morning.  We got home around 8.  I went back to sleep.  I haven't eaten much and I am exhausted.  I want to say I am exhausted because of being at ER but I wonder if its also because of stress and maybe an incomplete diet?  Not sure.  I am trying to make sure that my meals are squared out but I think I might be missing something somehow.

*sigh*  I did however manage to complete my food diary.

GOOD NIGHT NEW YORK!!!

Katie

Yesterday and Today (days 4 and 5 I think . . .)

<this was written 4/28/2011>

So I forgot to post yesterday.  It was a "Wacky Wednesday" as Dr. Suess would say :) .  I felt a little down yesterday but overall good.  I also forgot to do my daily food log.  However, I held firm and ate no meat :)  no processed foods :) no fried foods :)

I think I'm doing better.  Its just going to take soem time to adjust to a new way of eating and living, but I can do it :)

As for today, things are going fairly well.  I'm trying to get Killian to go down for a nap ATM . . . not happening very quickly but I think hes wearing down.  lol.  Today I am feeling a lot better, and much more dedicated to my resolve of getting healthy.  I know that the first 21 days are the hardest.  As someone once said, 'It takes 21 days to make the habit, 21 days to break the habit and a crap load of personal dedication to stick to it'.  Last time I have up on like day six or seven.  I don't plan to give up this time.  I have to make it happen :)

I am however feeling constantly hungry.   I think its because I'm not taking in as much heavy protein as I was before.  That and I am eating less <amazingly>; so here is a challenge, can anyone give me some food ideas for energy that fit within my guidelines?

Let me know!!!!

Katie

Day 3 of restart . . .

It turned out to be a pasta day.  lol.  I made Pasta Primavera this morning and that is what me and the kiddo have been eating all day.  The roommate had it for dinner as well.  AWESOMENESS!  :)  Feel better about my resolution today then i did yesterday, however I feel much more tired today.  I feel like almost second quessing myself.  Feel a little sad, a little depressed but overall just kinda blah.  I think I should be over it soon.  lol.  Im just trying to get into a new rhythm and its taking some time . . . .

Go for weightloss!!!

Katie

day 2-restat . . . im kinda feelin it . . .

So right now (1142)  im feeling pretty good about my decisions but I'm wondering how I am going to be able to stick to it.  lol.  I feel a little sad, kind of uncertain but overall determined to make sure that I make a difference in my life and weight so that I can go out with my son and do things.  I want him to be happy to have me as his mother, not embarrased.  I want to be able to run an 8 minute mile again, wear a size 10 at most and be able to feel healthy.  I am tired of feeling fat, sick and depressed.  There is no better time than now to make a difference for me and my son.  What I do will affect him.  What I do affects me.  I want to ber out with my son running around, playing soccer, baseball, football and not be gasping for breath because of my weight.  Its time to make a difference.  <tries to blink back tears and fails>


So as of now I realize I have almost overshot my calories for the day.  I think dinner tonight is going to be a very simple salad.  Easy on the dressing and with some good hearty vegetables to give me some added energy :)  I'm going to be signing off for the moment *giggle*

Katie

Could be going better . . . day 1 restart

So I could have made some better decisions today, but overall did well.  I did break the no meat rule, but its Easter and we went to a BBQ so I can't really hold that against myself.  Overall while we were there I had about 4 oz of ham, 1 serving of tri-tip, 1 serving of Italian pasta salad, half a serving of potato salad, 1 baked potato, 2 croissants, 1 serving green bean casserole and a couple sips of the kiddos Pepsi as well as a few crackers and a handful of chips.  I also ended up drinking a liter of Diet Dr. Pepper.  *blushes*  I think that today wasn't a bad day but I do think I could have made some better decisions.  I didn't eat breakfast, nor did I take my vitamines this morning. 

Today has been a pretty good day to be honest.  Woke up feeling refreshed.   The kiddo was in a good mood when he woke up.  Bryan was in a good mood and the dog wasn't too much of a pain.  <laughs> 

Updates

So I think it might be necessary to go ahead and post some updates.  I am, as of 15 APR 11, divorced, I have full and sole custody of my kiddo and I am unemployed.  I am stoked about the first to and trying to change the third.  Still going to court over Franks violating the retraining order; we should go to trial the last week of May.  Hopefully it happens :)  Other than that most stuff is still the same.  We have a dog now, his name is Jake, hes a black lap and awesome.  Today was our Easter (yes its a day early).  Killian got an awesome easter basket, hunted eggs, played with a sprinkle and some water guns :)  Dinner ended up being pizza, toasted sandwiches and lots of laughs. 

Katie

GROWL-LEAP!

Okay,  I started trying to make this work almost a year ago without the ability to follow through with it.  This is going to be starting off simple.  No really hard ideas.  For the next six months no meat, no fast food and no fried food.  I will be updating my intakes at myfitnesspal.com and publishing them to facebook (Katie Kuykendall Hernandez).  There is no better time than now to make a difference in my own life; so here goes!

Katie