Starting Day 5

Okay we are barely into day 5 but I can't sleep.  I'm beginning to realize why most people under high stress are overweight.  When we get in a stressed state our bodies release cortisol.  This causes our bodies to crave sugary or starchy foods and slows our metabolism.  If we  spend and extended period of time in our lives stressed, then we are bound to gain weight whether we eat right or not.  Stress is my downfall along with other things.  Someone once told me that the key to success is simple; have a plan of action for resolution and conflict management.  Okay I get that. 

Now if only I could cope with being a single parent and barely being able to provide better.  Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't give my son up for anything in the world.  No way no how.  But that doesn't make the job  of being a single mom any easier.  Its hard when ihave to make decisions and I can't turn to a life partner and ask how they feel about it and if they support me.  Its hare not having someone back me up on my parenting decisions.  WHen I feel overwhelmed with these things I turn to food.  Its like my saving grace. Some people smoke, some drink others have sex but I eat. I think there are going to be several keys to my success at this.  One of them is going to be reigning in my food habits and sticking to only eating if I'm hungry.

Off to try and sleep some more.  I open the desk tomorrow.  After work I have to do a walk through of our new place with the landlord to make sure they got some issues taken care of and after that I have to try to get my kiddo his shots and see if we can get him enrolled in some counseling as a preemptive action for court proceedings.