Starting Day 5

Okay we are barely into day 5 but I can't sleep.  I'm beginning to realize why most people under high stress are overweight.  When we get in a stressed state our bodies release cortisol.  This causes our bodies to crave sugary or starchy foods and slows our metabolism.  If we  spend and extended period of time in our lives stressed, then we are bound to gain weight whether we eat right or not.  Stress is my downfall along with other things.  Someone once told me that the key to success is simple; have a plan of action for resolution and conflict management.  Okay I get that. 

Now if only I could cope with being a single parent and barely being able to provide better.  Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't give my son up for anything in the world.  No way no how.  But that doesn't make the job  of being a single mom any easier.  Its hard when ihave to make decisions and I can't turn to a life partner and ask how they feel about it and if they support me.  Its hare not having someone back me up on my parenting decisions.  WHen I feel overwhelmed with these things I turn to food.  Its like my saving grace. Some people smoke, some drink others have sex but I eat. I think there are going to be several keys to my success at this.  One of them is going to be reigning in my food habits and sticking to only eating if I'm hungry.

Off to try and sleep some more.  I open the desk tomorrow.  After work I have to do a walk through of our new place with the landlord to make sure they got some issues taken care of and after that I have to try to get my kiddo his shots and see if we can get him enrolled in some counseling as a preemptive action for court proceedings. 

Days 3 & 4

I totally spaced on blogging yesterday.  I ended up having a small slip up.  I ended up eating a homemade hamburger and a couple chicken strips.  However I don't feel guilty.  I had no sauce on either and the hamburger was lean.  Chicken is always considered a healthy choice as long as its not fried.  I think I might have to modify my stage one phase.  After doing a little extra research I think that it might be more prudent to just cut out red meats and allow myself to eat chicken and turkey as long as they are baked or broiled and aren't breaded.  Other than those things it was a fairly good day yesterday.  I think im approaching the top of the hump for stage one.

As for today things have been going better.  I haven't had any cravings for meats, however I have been craving sugars.  As a diabetic I have to watch how much I take in but I think I have been doing it in fair moderation.  So far today I have had 3 slices of toast with a butter substitute and just a drizzle of sugar free syrup, 1.5 cups of apple sauce and now a package of top ramen.  I have been slacking off a bit on drinking water.  Instead I have been drinking more soda since my roommate has a Dr. Pepper/Diet Dr. Pepper addiction.  I think i subconsciously realize I'm going to give it up so I'm trying to get my fill in now.  I am also going to continue with the Alli pills as an assistant.  Several months ago my doctor recommended them to me; I've done a lot of research and I think with what I have planned food wise and in the exercise department I should be able to have minimal side effects and still benefit from its use.  Well I am off to a parenting class!

Day 2-Part 2

So today went a little bit better than yesterday.  I ate healthier foods but I did end up having a home made cheeseburger on wheat toast with light, fat reduced ranch dressing.  So far my only down fall of the day.  I just got home from work so I am going to go to sleep.  Hopefully tomorrow I can stay closer to the guidelines i have set.  lol.  :o)

Day 2

So today isn't starting off like I really want it to.  I feel a little sad and like giving up already.  :o|  I woke up wanting an energy drink, which is off limits, and sausage biscuits, which again are off limits for the first two weeks.  I don't go to work til1900 my time so until then I think I am going to get my exercise in by cleaning and packing.  My kiddo seems to think its funny to keep dumping our clothes on the floor and feeding the dog off of his plate so I also have to find a remedy for these

I realize this is going to be tough but I didn't expect it to be kicking in on day two.

Day 1

Alright here goes.   Today is day one.  After reading multiple posts, blogs and going back to my weight loss diaries I am starting with a new plan here.  I am going to take some ideas and mesh them together in order to put together a plan that I think and hope will work for me.  As of today my stats are :

Height: 5'10"
Weight: approx. 254 lbs
Pants size: 18 womens

Shirt size: x-xx

Goal weight: 164lbs
Goal size: 10 womens and Medium shirt

Okay. Here is my plan of action.  There are going to be a couple stages so that I don't feel overwhelmed going into this.  For the next two weeks I am going to cut out meat, alcohol, caffeine and smoking.  *sigh*.  I know this is a lot upfront but I am not going to have caloric or sugar restrictions for the first two weeks.  I am just going to try and purge some of the preservatives, etc from my body in order to be a little healthier going in.

After the next two weeks I will be cutting out soda and all carbonated beverages.  I will be replacing them with non carbonated flavored waters.  I know there will be more to this stage but right now I am starting to get nervous about the first stage.  :o)

So far today I have had a little slip.  I age about two ounces of meat.  However I have had no alcohol, caffeine or cigarettes.  I feel a little unsure and kind of nauseous about starting a new weight loss way without people having done it before and saying oh yes do it this way.  I don't know if I will suceed or fail but I would rather try and not succeed than assume my actions will fail.